A
beautiful 30 year woman came and told, Dr Vandana, I have unexplained pain
abdomen. My medical tests are normal. I also have pain during relationship. I had
natural abortions twice. I frequently dream that someone is being raped and
also that I am running.
Session……
It
is a big home and lots of people are there. I am 16 yr old girl. From my dress
it seems it is Rajasthan. It is afternoon. I am standing at the window of my
room on the first floor and looking outside at a house. It is afternoon. That house
is very small in comparison to mine. I feel I am looking for someone in that
house. It is late evening. I am downstairs taking food with my parents. They are
talking about my marriage. My father is telling that the boy is rich. I said I do
not want to marry. My father slapped me. Now my parents are arguing. I went up
stairs. I am crying in my room and looking outside at that house. There is a boy
sitting in veranda of that house. He is young like me. He is looking towards
window. I feel we like each other.
A
lot of preparation is happening in my home. Few people came here. I am watching
from another room. They are taking meals. It is the family; my father is
getting me married into. The boy seems to be very elder to me.
After
a month, my marriage is taking place. All in the family are happy except me. The
man is wearing Sherwani and carrying a sword. Phere ho rahe hain. I am looking a
beautiful bride. Ladka chup kar mujhe dekh raha hai. He has tears in his eyes.
I
am now at my husband’s home. This is larger home than ours. I have a mother-in-law.
I am alone in a big room. I am afraid. I am standing at door and thinking of an
excuse to leave this place. My husband came in the room. He is very strongly
built man. I am more afraid now. I am having severe pain in abdomen. (visible
pain for a long time). I felt raped.
I
am having lot of pain in my abdomen. My mother-in-law told it will be all right.
I feel like dying. Time is passing. I am sick and having fever. My husband and
mother-in-law brought me to my parent’s home. I am feeling very happy. I went
to my room and stood at the window. The boy is looking at me. I am healthy
again and happy here. The boy tried to speak to me once. I went and talked to
him. My brother saw us talking.
After
few days, I was left me at my in laws home. I do not feel good. Me and mine
husband do not talk to each other but he has sex daily. But I do not like it, I
am very unhappy. My life is going like this only.
I
am pregnant. My husband is taking me to my parent’s home. I look very weak. I am
delivering but the child died during birth. I keep on crying. After few months,
my husband came to take me but I refused to go. I am feeling happy. I also meet
that boy. We used to play together when we were young. We are Zamidars here and
he is an ordinary person.
The
boy and me, we both are running after each other. We are very happy. I suddenly
fall. The boy came and held my hand. He also fell suddenly. Somebody hit us. I see
my brother near us. I am dying. I am 28 yrs old. I am going towards light. It is
so peaceful in the light. I feel like receiving healing energy for my body.
Reorientation….
That
boy is my present life husband. We met when I was 15 and he was 16. We were neighbors
in university campus. There was lot of resistance to our marriage. We got
married in a temple when I was 23. We had to leave our parent’s home. I started
having pain abdomen one year after my marriage. I conceived twice but had
natural abortions. I feel that past life memory is stored in my abdomen and reproductive
system. I am very hopeful now that I will be free from this issue very soon.
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