Past Life Regression , Life Between Lives Regression, Age regression, Inner child healing, regression on Skype by Dr.Vandana Rraghuvanshi ....contact phone 09872880634
Saturday, October 29, 2016
Thursday, October 27, 2016
Tuesday, October 25, 2016
Past life link with Karma...
We have to 'pay', or, in other words, we have to reap what we have sown or have thrown into the Universe, through our actions, attitudes & intentions. This is called paying off karma. That is, we have to settle the accounts in order to clean the soul of the marks left on it by its negative actions or intentions. We also reap the fruits of the good seeds that we have planted.
Monday, October 24, 2016
Trust issue , Headache and Past life Link…Session written and shared by subject who regressed…. Session I saw myself in a very green place with wooden houses. I was wearing some clothing that looked very rough and un kept. I realized it was a very old time sometime in 1700s. I was in Ireland. A male life. I had a humble wooden hut, some farmland which was very small and i had two horses. There were civil wars happening, i could sense disturbance and a lack of friendliness in everyone, everyone was scared of being open to communication, many houses were raided and people were being removed from their homes , their lands were confiscated , it was a time of trouble . I knew i had a family but i was always so busy with other men discussing the day today life as we were always alarmed, armed and had to protect the family. Everyone had decided that i would be the spokesperson of the area we lived so that we could reach a compromise and settle the issue without any bloodshed. I could see flashes of houses being on fire, killing & cruelty. Next i saw was that I was in green fields and there was a cliff where i was to meet a man from the other neighboring village and we were to negotiate and talk so that we could have peace amongst our two villages and unite. I was waiting at the edge of the cliff overlooking the sea wondering how beautiful it would have been to go back to old times when everyone lived in peace. At this point i was unable to regress further , Dr.Vandana asked me to look from above, I realized that i was no more alive and i was looking from above at myself being drowned in the sea. I was pushed into the cold waters , it was near sunset when i was pushed off the cliff and into the sea, I did not really drown in the real sense as i was a good swimmer, the water was so cold that the shock of cold water made my heart stop beating. I don’t know how can that death be described but it was the shock of being pushed off the cliff combined the freezing cold water that killed me. I was finding difficulty to move above , i had no strength and was feeling heavy . I had a very severe pain in my head , at the back of my head due to which i was finding difficulty in moving up. Dr.Vandana helped me reach the white light and help me rest , I told Dr.Vadana that my lesson was “never to trust anyone”. I tried to recognize the person who had killed me and I could see eyes who were very familiar, I knew who he was. I also had seen that i had hit my head to an edge of a stone or a part of the cliff while falling and i had got a head injury due to which i had such a severe headache. I was going through too much pain and agony, I saw my soul mates and also the master light , had a brief blessing from the master light which helped me in resting and getting relief from my pain . Re-Orientation… Dr.Raghuvanshi, Now that I think of the trust issue I have had in my relationships I see it has always been very deep , there are many more people who go through bad relations or have problems with friends but no one had become so extremely cautious as i was. I had recognized the flaw in me and i was doing my best to causing some part of my loneliness. I am glad that i regressed to this life as past life therapy helps you , re live and re experience all the pain and trauma and then it releases the issue for good, once you identify an issue in a past life session you release that pain and this therapy brings an understanding that this was a matter of the past and it is not going to happen again as a result we stop repeating our fear and we stop sending the universe the wrong signals. Thank you Doctor !!!
Tuesday, October 18, 2016
PAST LIFE REGRESSION STORY SOLAN [HP]..09872880634
SESSION…….
I am Rose, a 12 year girl with golden hair, on a ship with my maid (care taker). My father is sending me to my grandparents in some European country because my mother is dead. My father is serving in some Asian country. I am growing up. Now I am a teenager. I met a man. He is my lover. I am very happy.
I am 22 years now and very upset. I learnt that my father is a spy,because during his last visit I heard him talking many times with strange people in night. It seems some conspiracy against this country. I don’t discuss this with my lover and grandparents. One day I went and lodged a complaint about my father with the authorities. This is 1932.
I am entering a big building. It seems airport. My friend came to see me off. It is so strange that my father is already at airport. I am going towards him. OH H HH !!!!my father shot me in the chest. I am falling. My father is crying. Now he shot himself also. I am dead.
Lesson learnt……….I should not have taken hasty decision. I should have made some inquiry before lodging complaint about my father. There was severe chest pain and feeling of uselessness at the time of death.
REORIENTATION…….
She said , dr. vandana , my chest hurts a lot at the same point where the bullet hit in my past life. There is a birth mark at this location. I met my husband for the first time at airport. There was a strong attraction between us. He proposed to me within a week of our first meeting. We are married for 5 years and we love each other very much. He is the same person whom I loved in my past life. After one year she informed I don’t have chest pain now. I am very happy in my life. I feel very peaceful .
Saturday, October 15, 2016
Friday, October 14, 2016
Past life regression , SOLAN [HP]...09872880634
SESSION…….
I am 20 years old walking continuously. I left my home because my step mother does not tolerate me and does not want me to live there. It’s India and very old times. I walked for many days, crossed many villages on the way and reached a very faraway place where King lived. I start working in palace. I drive princess’s carriage. The king is very old. Princess started loving me. I am being married to the princess. King died after two years of marriage. My son is born. I am wearing King’s attire and sitting in a Durbar. My 3-4 year old son died due to illness when I reached thirty. My wife is very sad and quiet. She is not even taking proper meals. I try my level best to make her happy. There is lot of responsibility of the kingdom on me. I face silent opposition in Durbar because I am not a Royal blood. My Queen remains sad despite my putting in lot of efforts to make her happy. She died within a year of our son’s death due her sadness. I am very lonely& always thoughtful. Durbar i’s cheat me. My wife was the only person who loved me in life. I am 50 years and sitting all alone thinking if only my wife, who loved me so much, would have been with me, my life would have been wonderful. I am feeling bad “why we had a child If death of the child was to take away my wife from me”. Life went on as a burden and in loneliness. I am 80 and all alone in the palace. Its night I am dying naturally. Next day the whole city gathered in my cremation. I am cremated on sandalwood pyre with full honors. My last thought was “the loneliness is killing, one should have family”. Family is a must.
REORIENTATION…….
He said, Dr.Vandana ,perhaps the exclusive thought “we should not have had a child, at least my wife would be live with me” carried by me for a long time in my past life is the reason for my predicament in current life. I got married at the age of 20 years and all our medical reports are normal. We have tried all available infertility treatments but all proved futile. As a therapist I recommended adoption.
Monday, October 10, 2016
Why I suffered so much in my life ???? Session is written and shared by subject who regressed ... Session I saw myself as an 8 years old golden hair boy looking at sky and playing with a kite , i started feeling uneasy feeling a dark shadow behind me. He was my guardian, a black farm manager who had come to take me from the fields, to take me back to the farm. I was not related to him and i was raised by him on a farm located in Mexico. Then I saw myself at the age of 15 wearing brown cowboy pants, it felt like I was not an obedient child anymore, I was not still helping the black guy in any way and i was just living on that farm with them, it took me a lot of effort to reach the event that had affected me, it was in Mexico city, i was 17 years old and i was standing at a corner , smoking ,I i could sense that i was a guy that people feared and if they talked to me or called me it was because of my fearless and mischievous behaviour and not out of true respect, next i heard the black guy calling me from behind by my name , he said “ hey Bob”, and before I could turn my head fully , he hit me with a sharp edged weapon in the head , I cld feel the pain but not see the blood and i kept telling Dr.Vandana that there is no blood, I was taken to a nursing home where i was treated. after this point everything was blank and i could not progress further, would lose Dr’s directions however finally i moved to another chapter, at this point i was a 28 yrs old man , tall with brown hair, wore good clothes, married with 2 kids and I knew I was in New York city . By now i knew i was of Italian origin and had now settled in new york, i was short tempered, did not respect my wife, did not love her though i was attached to her and i was a chain smoker which I kept on telling Dr.Vandana” I smoke alot, I smoke alot”. Dr.Vandana asked me what did u do ? and I said i was always at home , I only ordered, i no more worked and remained home most of the times as now iihad people work for me , and she asked what do they do for you ? I answered they bring me the money, i am the Mafia Don . She asked me if i ever killed anyone and i did not want to answer, i said Ii no more kill and i only order my people to kill. She asked me why did i stay home and i answered to protect my family. She asked me again if i killed many people but i did not answer and i could not progress, i said i am very short tempered, i dont like my wife, women are good for nothing, they are only there to reproduce and they can do nothing in life. My wife’s name was Mary, she was my mom-( in real life)-. I had an assistant who took care of everything , namely Billy..This man is a friend in real life , someone who played a very major role in my today’s misery. I told Dr.Vandana that billy is the guy who would take care of the business after me. She asked my why i did not love my wife but i did not say anything and again went into a discomfort mode. After sometime Dr.Vandana asked me to move ahead in that life and then i was on the street, shot in the right knee and in the right side of the stomach, it was a shoot out of two gangs and i was shot, Billi took me to a place where I felt i stayed for 3 months to recover from the wounds. My knee healed however my stomach remained infectious throughout life, interesting is that exactly at the age of 34 I started to have this knee problem/ injury where after many tests and MRIs doctors are still not sure what did cause it and asked me not to have any physical activity that would put stress on my knee for 6-9 months but more interesting is the wound on the right side of the stomach.I have a birth mark exactly at the same place. It is amazing how we carry even the physical pain with us. When i further progressed in my past life as Don Bob, i saw myself at home, and suddenly i was hauling, the feeling of loss was so intense that i was shaking and crying , when Dr. Asked me to explain why i was crying i told her that my wife had sent both my sons to billy, as she thought they were more safe with him ...I could never forgive my wife for this act. The next scene was that my wife was packing her suitcase and wanted to leave, i did not stop her, i let her go. Dr.vandana asked me to see where she was and i saw her in a house where women with no family and support were taken care of , she died a lonely death there at maybe 34 and my younger son was the only person present at her funeral. Next Dr.Vandana asked me to see where my sons were and i could see that they were with billy , now young men, my elder son was a very cruel and shrewd man , a bad soul with scary eyes , he happened to be the closest person to me in this life who actually ruined my life and my younger son was aloof , he was not happy being there. After this i cld not progress further so Dr.Vandana asked me to go back to childhood again , there i came to know how i had landed up living with the black guy, i was 3 years old walking with my mom and dad on the street and i was lost around noon, and by evening when no one came to take me ,the black guy he took me to that farm and raised me, at this point i knew why he hit me at the age of 17, i had become popular and the farm owner had asked me to take care of the farm and had put him out of job and jealousy was the reason for his action. This guy too has played a very major role in my today’s problems. By now i knew who he was. At this point Dr.Vandana asked me again if i ever killed anyone and i said 4-5 maybe and i killed the black guy too. It felt as if i felt the black guy and his action lead me to becoming a don as after i killed him in a state of revenge i had to turn away and eventually i turned to a Don, i felt he was responsible for polluting my soul and it is so amazing i feel the same about the person in my real life, i feel he is the cause of me taking a very wrong decision and i have been tricked to a situation that i never wanted to be in. The next scene was when my elder son he came home, he was furious, he wanted to kill me as he thought and believed i had sent his mom away and was responsible for his death, i explained to him that she was not happy and she herself left the house, showed him the cupboard that she had taken all her belongings, he calmed down and left, at this moment i told Dr. That i did not like him and he was a bad soul, he had killed many people and was cruel , she asked me why didnt i like my elder son and finally i told the secret that he was not my son, he was my wife’s and billy’s son and i felt i never told this to my son as i did not want him to hate his mother. Interesting is t fact that the mother of the same person in my real life had ran away with her lover after marriage and then was brought back home. Dr.Vandana asked me if i had relations with any other women and i refused very clearly. I was asked to go to the time of death , i saw myself as 75 years old who was very weak due to excessive smoking and the wound in the stomach. I was trying to turn off the light when i fell and died, my body was there for 7 days and was eventually recovered by neighbours and police came to take my body, i was not leaving the place till my body was taken care of. Doctor asked my what colour light i was and my answer was that i was a grey powder, she asked me to move on and go into the white light but i told her i wanted to go back , i had some work, she told me to go back and finish it and i went back to see my younger son , i saw him and gave him my blessings and it is after that that i cld move up and above, it was a great struggle to go to the white light , Dr.Vandana being a healer as well pushed me with her techniques and eventually i reached the white light , it was magical and peaceful, i feel i rested there for 7 years.
Saturday, October 8, 2016
Shared by Client.. My LBL Experiences: I would like to share the LBL session experiences i have so far had as i felt this amazing peace and wisdom that gets transferred in each LBL. The blessings leaves a deep impression on the soul and it feels like a confirmation of the path chosen by the soul. I have gone through many regression sessions and have been fortunate enough to experience and enjoy the LBL session after each regression. In my first life i had been through child abuse and also had a relation with a lover who left me and never came back, I had learnt that men r not trustworthy and maybe that was the answer to my failed relationships and the fact i had a difficulty trusting men. In this session when i went to the white light i saw the master soul and my soulmates, when i asked would i ever have a soulmate i got a reassurance from the master soul , he indicated me that i had to wait for another 6 months as this was not the right time and i was given blessings and was allowed to stay in the white light til i am refreshed and rested. He also showed me the soul mate, he was there standing and waiting , i got a feeling that he already knew me and he knew one day we would be together.The peace and serenity that one feels after the blessings not only reflects on day to day activity but also on the face. One feels detached ! The next LBL session was after my second life, when i ended my life at the age of 17 by cutting my nerve.... when my soul departed after ensuring that the body was taken care of i was not a bright light like my first session, i saw my soul as a grey powder which was very disturbing, once i reached the white light , master soul was there waiting but furious, i asked him why did i have to suffer in all 4 lives i had seen, why did i always end up being deserted by parents and lover and why was i to suffer but the answer was horrifying , the Master soul was furious, he gave a glance and turned his back as a punishment, i was only allowed to rest there in the white light but he refused to talk to me. I rested there for 7 years before my next life and felt pured, i transformed and became one with the white light , i experienced the anger of Master soul indicating that suicide was not acceptable by the universal laws and i had to fight my problems. While resting in white light, i experienced immense peace and a feeling that i had a life purpose, higher than i had thought and i should find out what that is. I had learnt that “PEACE COMES FROM FORGIVENESS”. My 3rd LBL session was after i had departed a very difficult life both physically and emotionally, when i reached the white light i again experienced the master soul and the soul mates presence, i had a very typical question in mind and i asked the master soul however this time too he was not happy with my question , i got an impression that when you know the answer why are you trying to fool yourself and why are you wasting my time, he turned away without blessings and i tried to reach out to my soul mates and ask questions however their message too was that i should look within me for answers and i would find all my answers. At this point i could recognize one of my soul mates and it was Steve Jobs. The soul mate i was supposed to meet in this life was waiting again and giving me a sarcastic smile indicating that I was the reason for my own confused state of mind. I joined the white light after that and healed my injuries from the life i had lived. Felt peace and a sense of wisdom and i had learnt that one should never do unjust to anyone. What i have seen that Soul is always very concerned about the body after it leaves the body, it never departs unless the body is taken care of and also how the body is handled leaves an impression on the soul. After each jorney soul exactly knows where it has gone wrong but it is important for the soul to be able to carry all lessons from each life and apply them in the current life. That is how the soul would start being on higher journey, or at least this is my understanding so far. 4th LBL session: In my fourth life i was a doctorate in law and still could not prove my innocence when i was being accused of killing my fiancé. I was imprisoned and sentenced to death, the day of my death when i was to be hanged i had the courage to walk till the hanging place on my own feet and also i put the rope in my neck with my own hands and kicked the stool to be hanged however after i died and reached the white light i realized i was a pure soul and i learnt and got the impression that i had actually died of a heart attack and before i was really pulled so i felt this immense peace that though the life i lived was so unjust but there is always justice in life and lesson was that “LIFE IS FAIR even if we do not recognize it then“, the fact that i died a natural death and not by hanging was a blessing in itself , at this point the master soul gave me his blessings and an impression that i was a good soul and he knew that it was not my fault. I also learnt that one needs to speak for what is right and should have the courage and ability to prove his righteousness and seek justice .This LBL was very peaceful and i was the pure golden white light and i asked the master light about my purpose , he should me that i would know it by May 2012. A great sense of satisfaction and blessings showered upon me . It was an amazing experience . 5th LBL session: I had reached the white light after my death at an old age, natural death and a life of respect, however i had lost my wife and had lived alone after that. When i reached the white light my wife who also happened to be my soulmate was waiting there , we embraced each other and were together feeling blessed when my wife indicated that i should take blessings of teh master soul and go back to earth, all my soulmates and master soul nodded on the advise and after i was showered by the blessings of teh master soul , she reassured me that she would join me soon and i left the white light. I had so far recognized to soul mates till this session, my younger brother who has always been either my child or my younger brother and Steve Jobs. I also regressed slightly to future , i wanted to know when would i come out of this troubles and when would i actually be ready for my purpose? It was then that may 2012 was indicated and i saw a red demarcation and the fact that very little was left for me to cross that line and the other side was beautiful, respect, recognition, purpose and peace was awaiting me ....I loved the feeling and it still is so fresh in my mind. 6th LBL session: I had died after living a female life who abandoned by her lover again yet very contented, After i reached the white light i knew i am to rest there for 10 years , i could see any soul mates and there they were again , all of them , reading writing and lost in their scholar word again......i saw the same soul mate again , who was younger and had conveyed to me that no matter where i go i would be re united with him again, i asked him a question that what are you writing and he showed me his book , it was written “ u wld be mine”, then he held my hand and tried to push me towards himself so that i could join him, I asked him that how would i know him and he replied he would push me on his own and it felt as if the time to meet him was very close now. i could see the master and yes he was there right behind me , waiting lovingly for my conversation to finish and i turned around and asked him that i know i am here for a purpose and i know i am very close to that purpose , when is it ? when is the time and he gave me a very clear date .After that he surrounded me and gave me blessings, initially we both were of same colour and material, silverfish but after the master soul embraced me and patted me on forehead with his blessings we both became translucent , so pure i was , crystal clear and i stayed in that state of abundance blessing to my full.... contented, blessed and light...........IT WAS A BEAUTIFUL FEELING !I had recognized my soul mate but i was in denial .he was my best friend “ The lesson i learnt was that one needs to be responsible for his own actions and be contented “ 7th LBL experience: I had died a beautiful respectful death ,however i felt before departing i had an unfinished job, i wanted to forgive my dad and seek forgiveness which i did however i wanted to make him aware that he needs to be a responsible soul, he cant carry on leaving his children life after life so i spoke to him, made him understand and then forgave him and also asked for his forgiveness and it is only after i finished this responsibility i could go to rest , this time too i saw the master soul, smiling at me , he gave me his blessings and i asked him about my purpose again, and when would i be finally with my soul mate, he gave me the date and also helped me progress to future and i saw a beautiful scene however would not be able to share the same on this platform.I had a beautiful experience and the lesson i learnt was “ Sometimes the best decisions are not necessarily the right ones and while taking a decision one should always involve both heart and mind and not always practical decisions are the best ones for our soul journey”. 8th LBL session: I had lived a life with no regrets,had loved immensely , had given chances and then taken justice in my hands.After my death i wanted to go and seek forgiveness , it is amazing how the soul experiences, interprets and carries different impressions .i went back to forgive and seek forgiveness for the first time whether in regression or in real life i saw life in that specific individual’s eyes and we smiled and parted ways then i left to join the divine light, i saw my soul mates and also the master soul, this time i was a greyish light not too bright so wanted to be healed with divine light and then the master soul blessed me too and i asked him about my soul mate again and he reassured me that i wld be with my soulmate in present life. I did not ask anything this time from my soul mate as i knew he was busy finishing an un finished work so that we cld be together. I rested in white light and received blessings .I was too tired this time and wanted to rest as it was what the master soul had indicated.It is so strange how we keep carrying impressions and how we plan to pay for our deeds ....I feel blessed to have been able to experience 8 lives...........Maybe this is one of the reasons i kept coming back to India despite all that i went through here. “My lesson from life was NEVER LOVE SO IMMENSLY that would hurt you to let go “
Friday, October 7, 2016
Find your Soul Mate in Past life regression with LBL Session....
It is said that even before you were born, the name of your spiritual half has been determined. Each soul has a … your soulmate.
Your true spiritual soulmate is the person who is intended to help you “complete yourself.”
Jerry McGuire was right – soul mates complete each other. A person is unable to complete his mission in life alone. Everyone needs someone to help them become a better person. This is not always a blissful experience.
Being in an honest, sincere, and committed soulmate relationship helps you to become a better version of yourself. You have to push yourself beyond your comfort zone, beyond your limits to find your better self.
Even though we tend to think of soul mates as a symbiotic union; soulmate relationships can be rough at the beginning. They can be like two jagged edged puzzle pieces trying to click into place. Sometimes it looks like you do not fit together at all, but soon after a little bit of twisting, turning, and flipping the pieces around, you feel the moment of the perfect click. It’s a feeling deep in your soul, that says, this is the right one.
Often soulmates appear in disguise. You might not be physically attracted to each other when you first meet, but there is a mysterious force pushing you forward that tells you this is “the right one” for you.
You know you’ve found your soulmate when:
1. You just know it.
Something deep inside tells you . It’s as if there is a spiritual force pushing you to let go of everything you previously expected and to give of yourself completely.
2. You have crossed paths before.
Soulmates have met each other and a previous time. You may not have connected, but you were in the same place, at the same time. Yet you never met until the time was right.
3. Your souls meet at the right time.
Each person has to be ready to receive the soul connection. You have to be prepared to meet your soulmate. when it comes to soulmates- timing is everything.
4. Your quiet space is a peaceful place.
Being quiet together is comforting like a fluffy down blanket on a cold winter night. Whether you are reading in the same room, or driving in the car, there’s a quiet peace between you.
5. You can hear the other person’s silent thoughts.
With soulmates, there is such depth to your relationship that you can feel and hear what your partner is thinking, even if it is not verbally expressed.
6. You feel each other’s pain.
You stand in each other’s shoes. You know each other so well, that the second he walks in the door, you can tell how his day was. You feel each other’s feelings: sadness, worry, and stress. And you share each other’s happiness and joy.
7. You know each other’s flaws and the benefits in them.
Yes, it’s true. Our flaws have benefits. Every trait has a positive as well as a negative side. It’s the task of each person to always look for the good, even when things don’t look so good. There is usually a benefit to each flaw..
8. You share the same life goals.
You’re both on the same page with values, ethics, and goals. You may have a different way of reaching those goals, but you both want the same end result.
9. You’re not afraid of having a conversation.
Conversations can be challenging. Expressing concerns or attempting to make decisions is uncomfortable. Soulmates know that if they join together, they will be able to work it out.
10. You are not threatened by the need for alone time.
You respect each other’s need for independence, knowing that when you get together, your time alone is special.
11. You don’t experience jealousy.
You are secure knowing that you are the only one.
12. You respect each other’s differences and opinions.
Often soulmates are polar opposite. At times this is challenging. These are the times when you are being forced to let the other person complete you. You still have your own opinion, but instead of agreeing to disagree, there is a deep level of respect for each other. You listen and honor the differences.
13. You don’t scream, curse, or threaten each other with divorce.
Of course you feel the anger. People unintentionally hurt each other. But soulmates aren’t nasty, hurtful, or punitive.
14. You give in because you want to make your partner happy.
Giving can often occur in unhealthy, co-dependent, or abusive relationships. But soulmates give to each other for the sole purpose of making each other happy.
15. You know how to apologize.
It’s not easy to say “I’m sorry” or admit that you did something that hurt the person you love. Soulmates realize that their actions or words cause harm. Even if they feel justified in their point of view, if their partner was hurt by it, they can easily apologize for the harm they have caused.
16. You would marry each other again.
You know this is the one and only one for you. Even through the tough times, you would choose your partner again. You feel a sense of pride in your partner.
17. You complete each other.
No person is perfect. We all have our strengths and weaknesses. Soulmates complete each other. It’s the yin and yang of perfect harmony. One person may be the extrovert, while one is the introvert. One may be social, while the other a homebody. Soulmates are often opposite that are attracted to a person who has their missing pieces.
18. Being in each other’s arms washes away all your stress, worries, and anxiety.
There is no place you’d rather be at the end of the day but in each other’s arms. If you had a rough day filled with disagreements, a fight with your boss or if you missed the train, whatever happened is gone the second you cuddle up together. There is a warmth in your heart, an inner peace you can feel. No words need to be spoken. All that exists is the silent, blissful union of two souls together. Two souls that were meant to be together eternally.Monday, October 3, 2016
Sunday, October 2, 2016
Her Soul felt Healed After Past life Regression...
A 33 year old woman came to find the answer for her sadness for unknown reasons.
Session….
I am meditating sitting on a high stone rock. At the end of my meditation I am looking at the Sun and Namaste to Sun. I took my stuff and walked down the rock. As I am walking wearing a white Dhoti, a white thread and Rudraksh Mala,I can tell I am so energized. I am bald except for a black Choti on the back of my head. My body and brain both are refreshed. I have beautiful black eyes and fair skin tone. As I am walking towards my house I see villagers paying me respect “Namaskar”. I am enjoying my status, my mind and everything around me.
Suddenly I see a girl running and behind her couple of people trying to catch her. I run towards her without giving a second thought. She comes towards me. As I reach her, I signaled her to come behind me. I covered her. The moment she touched my back as she was hiding, I felt instant attraction towards her. People who followed her are in front of me but they leave as they respect me. I bring the girl home as I cannot leave her in the middle. We don’t talk on the way.
My mother is at home and she gives her food. She looks at me constantly. I am attracted to her. After few days of her stay at our home one day she came upstairs in my room. She said she wants to marry me. I was shocked but confused as I was a saint but I was attracted towards her also. She feels safe with me and attracted to me. She is bold and very straight forward. She is very clear but I am confused about marriage. I leave the home in confusion. I came back in the evening and found her in my room waiting for me. I hugged her passionately and said yes.
We are getting married. Marriage ceremony is over. Suddenly some villagers carrying lathis in their hands came to our house. I realized I lost my respect due to this marriage. Villagers were very angry with me. I don’t know who she was and in what situation she was in. I married her due to attraction and the situation we were in. It was only love, no judgment for each other. But this was not enough for society. The villagers almost beat me to death but I don’t feel the pain. They took her away to the river. Somehow I run behind them but they drown her in front me and I could not do anything. She died in the river. I think to drown myself also as I did not want to live any more but I did not do it. I spent days and nights on the river bank, just sitting sad and helpless. And then I came back to my home.
Now I am little older, two young boys run around the house and smile at me. I often see them in my home and around. I think they are growing with me. I spent all my life in sadness and without purpose. I lost my physical and mental beauty just repenting on the thought that I could not live my life as I wanted. I was neither a saint nor a family man. I am sad, has no interest and liveliness as I had when in was young. I felt failure inside. I died in sadness.
In light, Lord Shiva gave her guidance and energy. She left my Chamber saying I feel very light. She said.. Thank you doctor Vandana Ji for this wonderful experience, I feel as if my soul is healed.
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