Why my relationships does not stay?

Why my relationships does not stay?

Session......

I am 24 yrs old beautiful girl. I am going to meet someone. I went into a garden and met a young man. We are talking. He kissed me. I recognise this person in my present life. He is my first love.  I am now coming back from the garden. Suddenly I feel something is pulling me somewhere else. I left that life. I am entering into another life. It is a small village. I am wearing Rajasthani attire. I wear a lot of silver. I am doing all the work. I make earthen pots for living. My husband does not do anything. I abuse him a lot. I hate him a lot. One day I told him he should die and pushed him. He left the home. I lived my life alone and died. This person is my present life ex-husband.  

Why am I not getting married?

Why am I not getting married?

Session.....

We are in the jungle. I am a small girl. We are happy. It is African tribe.  It is evening and we are dancing around fire. Now I am 16 yrs old. I am sleeping with a man in the hut. It is morning we both are going to the jungle for hunting. I am not afraid at all. Life is simple and good. There is lot of love and laughter in life. Everything we work together. We have two children. It was a simple life. Now I left that life. In this life I am in the Europe. I am a woman. I earn good. I am beautiful. I like hurting men. I am heartless. I feel I insult men. It seems I got married. I threw the man down from the balcony. I feel man wanted to make me feel small. At 45 I died sitting in my rocking chair. People put me in coffin and buried. I opened my eyes. I am feeling suffocated. I want to get out but slowly dullness is overpowering me. I am going towards light. It is so peaceful. The purpose of my present life is to love and trust people.